and now?

This is a personal text. It is becoming harder and harder the interaction with many things.

People just busy with their endless talks about just anything. Agitation around everywhere. Noise, pollution, chaos...

I believe we have to endure and learn how to deal with many different situations, but, when the level of sensitiveness reaches to a point that is so high, it becomes unbearable and almost gives a sense of despair.

It is like a cry, choked in the chest. A feeling of having no air to breath. Silent dry tears that run without actually being there.

You look around and everything seems out of place, and out of pace. Running at a high speed, or sometimes in slow motion...

So is the problem the world? is the problem .. you?

Watching everything with different lenses, and you see details others don`t. You feel things others ignore. Then falsehood becomes so clear, lies hurt, because you see them, even if you don`t want...

Masks fall, not only masks from the others, but you see your masks falling when you face yourself. You look in the mirror, there is no image. But then, you look again, and there it is, just you.

But what are you? Who are you? Who truly are you?

There are so many things coming to mind, and it is hard to face them when you see how silly you are sometimes, how egoic, childish behaviors...

So many things that you thought you had already dealt with, then you see how pride prevents you from growing, how fear freezes you...

It is like a boat, you know the wind is good, the flow is good, but you fear to remove the anchor...

I believe it is part of the Journey, at least mine.

One step at the correct time... some break during the way... and trying to endure