Em Hotep ☥
Realizing that time is something we cannot control. For me, understanding that the processes of growth and internal evolution have their own timing was something very important. Many of us, when embarking on a journey to learn more about ourselves, about life, death, magic, occultism, start from a point within ourselves where we may or may not have a certain baggage. For me, the beginning was an interesting process, especially when I started to come into contact with Asetianism.
I already believed to possess certain knowledge that was aligned with my connection to Egypt and the Egyptian gods, especially Aset.
I understood certain things within myself, was aware of internal movements and events that I always sought to observe, understand, practice, and improve. However, with the ups and downs that the Path brings, I began to realize that the initiatic process indeed unfolds little by little, day by day, and often in a subtle way that seems like it is not happening.
It's not fireworks coming out of one's hands, it's not any kind of fantastical awakening. It's not memories of past lives that suddenly emerge, it's not an awareness of belonging to a certain lineage.
In daily life, when we are more conscious of ourselves, we can notice the nuances of change. And for me, this has been one of the greatest processes. Understanding Asetianism as part of me is to truly feel it as my own. Everyone has their experience within the path, within this journey, but for me, today, much more than before, it is mine. True and real. Almost like feeling it physically with a vibration in the middle of my chest. A love.
I feel, perhaps a bit lax in dedicating myself to certain practices and studies, as daily life swallows me with the various necessary tasks to be done, however, just realizing that this energy is part of me, is here, touches me, and makes me happy simply to have found or refound this path to this place that is so familiar, a home.
With the arrival of the Primordial Dragon Tradition, and I call it arrival due to the short time of contact with this energy, I realized the greatness that exists within all of this, even more so. And I feel honored to have been touched by it. I still approach it with care, and primarily with respect and devotion. Devotion to something that is much, much greater than me, and that I can only offer this humble look of devotion and longing for learning.
I am very grateful to be where I am, to be who I am, and to have had this growth. These steps are gradual and bring this evolution in different gradients, in different nuances. Balance.
I believe it is in our daily lives, in our manifested plane, that we need to feel this, because it is of no use to have an illusion of greatness in other spheres if we do not know and master ourselves in our most basic plane.
Vampirism becomes a secondary subject because it, to me, is part of me, not as something special, not as something alien, foreign, and strange to me, but what I am, in essence.
It seems strange to speak in this way, in essence, because it would be like a limiting agent, but if I continue to look more and more at the subtle forms that compose me, I see my essence diluted, fluid, connected to the Whole, a much greater energy, the Tao.
So, in my view, it's as if I see in layers, and one of the closest to what I am, in essence, while closest to this plane is the one I mentioned above.
These words are just a sharing of a personal opinion, with my experiences, my journey, but with the feeling of wanting to share how powerful Asetianism is as a Tradition, which manifests differently for each one, resonates differently, and will bring teachings, learning, evolution in some way. Whether for those who always return, for those who truly feel it is something of themselves, or for those who only deal with the spark of this power for a few moments. No one comes out unscathed. That's good. Because everything changes and transforms with movement, what is stagnant does not evolve. And changes can occur in various ways, through various tools, and I repeat, no one comes out unscathed from contact with Asetianism.
Lyn
